hi there!!!! my name's jules and i'm a 15 year old teenager from poland that had unrestricted internet access since age 6.... i currently attend high school and experience your regular angsty teen problems that i wish to share with the world as a way of coping with them!!! except for them i also struggle with some mental disorders that im medicated for (i dont really take my meds though and i ghosted my therapist teehee) and still go through the process of recovery!!! i've been struggling with an eating disorder for quite a while and if you lurk around for a good while you might find a page dedicated to my recovery journey from it.... i also suffer from bipolar disorder and ocd (and of course i'm autistic)....,, i'm in an ongoing manic episode so instead of spending all my money on pretty things i'm going to make the best site i've ever made!!! i consider myself a socially awkward extrovert, but recently i started to overcome my fear of meeting new people and trying to get along with them!!!!! if let's say you saw me in public i'd be either wearing a super cute fit with a skirt and thigh highs or i'd look vvvvvvery basic (literally my duality fr), as you might've figured out I LOVE pretty things so i find myself often spending money on plushies, figures, clothes or other things just because i found them pretty cool and they're currently sitting in the darkest pit of hell (my shelves). i have huge problems when it comes to 2 things - my identity and my relationships. my identity has been unstable ever since i could remember and i never had a full image of who i was, i would change myself all the time just so that i could fit in, even if i didn't really like something i'd still go after it because - hey, everyone likes it, so should i! well, i decided to make this site in order to somehow gather all the things i like and help me figure out who i really am and to share it with the world. when it comes to my relationships because of my pretty often mood swings and the constant manic and depressive episodes they tend to die out pretty quickly, i really wish i was able to maintain them better.

every time when i felt like my life was getting worse i would watch anime or read mangas to cheer myself up, some of them really changed me as a person or helped me calm down during long paranoia episodes that would last for ages

ANIMANGA: houseki no kuni, higurashi, qualia under the snow, chainsaw man, oyasumi punpun, serial experiments lain, neon genesis evangelion, kiznaiver, spirited away, nichijou, aggretsuko, magica madoka, patema inverted, saiki k, a silent voice

games were always a huge part of my identity, mainly during childhood, they really influenced who i am right now and how i react to certain situations or signals from the outside world

GAMES: omori, undertale, league of legends, needy streamer overload, yume nikki, mad father, pokemon, minecraft, terraria, slime rancher, pony town, papa's games, ddlc,

i really value music as it's one of my key ways of expressing myself, especially my feelings which i'm not the best at putting into words.

MUSIC: ecco2k, bladee, thaiboy digital, sematary, ghost mountain, hackle, buckshot, elusin, yameii online, my bloody valentine, whirr, narrow head, alex g, deftones, slowdive, crystal castles, the cure, pastel ghost, insane clown posse, type o negative, lifelover, psychonaut 4, mutiilation, darkthrone, slipknot, korn, the garden, skull fist, msi

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WATCHING: youtube documentaries
READING: shakespeare's operas
DOING: about to fall asleep it's 2 in the mornin
THINKING: life's a fuck but i love the good moments in it to the point it feels illegal